Just came back from family's gathering at east coast park chalet there (:
and i slacked myself till now i blogged about it..


Though i'm really happy that my childhood playmate-kenny (my cousin),
invited me for a short gathering over at the chalet their dad rented,
but i have discovered something..
something that makes me uncomfortable..
something that makes me think alot...
something that makes me feel like changing...
and that something,
leaves me hanging in the middle of nowhere.

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I reached their chalet around 5pm+,
catch up with my cousins and uncles,
got ''beaten up'' by the smaller cousins =p
ate abit and rented a roller blade and blade towards Bedok Jetty.

After the long journey,
i've reached there BUT!!!
it was closed for renovations =.=''
it was all covered up with metal planks..

I'm a very "yearn for victory" person,
so i banged the planks,
turning and looking around for holes or cracks to access into the jetty,
went down the beach..
i saw a way to climb into the jetty through the side!!^O^

Began to took down my roller blades and as i began to jump,
2 indian couples creeped up behind me!
i thought they gonna catch me for climbing in!!=X
instead they were quietly throwing up fishing nets and rods,
and pointed to me another secret way to go in! (:

I climbed in effortlessly and blade towards the end..
lots of things went over my head..
i was thinking..that something.....

While i spent so much effort going towards the jetty,
i only get to enjoy 10 minutes because it's time to return the blades =(
and i climbed out and hurried back~~

Ah ma was very nice,
knew that i never eat much just now and offer me 3 chicken wings and rice!(:
and after that i choose not to stay overnight because i'm looking for more jobs again tml (:
went to toilet before going off..

And this is the part where you would laugh (if there's any reader i mean o,O ),
through out the roller blading near the beach,
i never fell nor hurt myself,
but as i rush out from the toilet with my foot wet and frictionless,
i got clumsy and fell down like an elephant being thrown down from up high -.-''
3 aunties looked at me in awe and asked if i was ok..
yea...
i am....in big disgrace =(

Later,i got up an uncle's car and they ferry me to angmokio with ah ma,
and i got home through train (:

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That something is just a small little feeling about myself.I starting to feel that i'm a very useless person..My sister got told me before,a person with a character like mine,would always be under others and behind others,as compared to those people who knew how to socialise,bootlick,have good charisma and talk more than do.Though they may be detest by others,but they would still be able to enjoy the luxurious life they dream to have,and be very successful in life.

What i meant is i don't want to be like them,but what i suddenly felt empty,makes me think alot,makes me uncomfortable and feel like changing myself again,was the word-SOCIALISE.
Though i'm able to catch up a few words with my cousins and uncles,but i don't feel comfortable,i don't have common topics nor do i brighten their mood with my jokes or foolishness,i just made them kept worry if i was bored,if i was hungry or shy do not dare to eat.

End up uncle still have to ask me join them(my cousins and friends) to play and not sitting there alone staring at them BBQ-ing.My answer to him was that i'm old already,can't hit it off with them just like before.And cousins have their friends too to entertain,i can't be selfish.Uncle replied saying if i'm old,what is he?.....Actually i lied to him,i lied to myself,i'm not old..i'm just..failed to interact well...


From today onwards,i will quit being an introvert =)

€ SHORT NOTE €

Thanks for accompanying me today through SMS when i'm all alone! (: appreciate your love...and your effort to change (: love you lots,i would change and improve too!^O^

Labels: Family, Myself

Went to Ah ma house with bebe in the evening. (:
every wednesday has become a regular dinner for me,
and sometimes with bebe <3,
and dine with her and uncle (:

Nothing much to post but just my innermost feelings about ah-ma.
when i decided to go to ah ma house every wednesday,
i made it a MUST that from holiday onwards,
every wednesday will be dinner with ah ma.

What struck my sudden decision is because,
basically,our family aren't as close as others,
we rarely get to meet each year,
perhaps only when special occasion like,
(e.g. wedding dinner? Chinese new year? Birthdays? )

So when i heard from jinjin's story about his ah gong,
i cried..
suddenly i thought to myself,
why i can spend so much time playing at home,
why i can spend so much time with my tortoises,
why i can spend so much time with my friends and loved one,
and why couldn't i spend 1 day every week with my ah ma?

Sometimes maybe my aunts etc would become jealous and claim i'm fake,
but that's alright,
because what they are doing are just...
neglecting their own mother,
that's all (:

I just wanted to cherish this last grandparent of mine (:

OK OOK OK OK O KO KKK O K O KK OK O O K~~~(enough craps!~)

When we reached ah ma house,
she was busy frying chicken wings for us!! ^O^
i helped her clean the fridge,
eat lots and lots of chicken wings!!!!!^Q^

Then....
the gruesome tonic came to the table ToT
this was what happen.

Last last week,
ah ma claimed bebe and i was extremely short and thin like skeleton =(
so she ''complained'' to my mum and wanted to brew tonic for us.

And here we are there just now,
attempting to drink it ~''~
bebe was great!!she loves bitter things and drank it as if it was water!!
as for me....
every mouthful send shivers down my spine ToT
we each cleared 2 bowls~~~

Then i pass $20 to my ah ma,
as my dad wanted me to pass to her for the tonic (:
she became furious and reject it!!!!!
so i hid it under her pillow,
called her to tell her the money,
after we got out of her house!LOL!!^O^


We had a great day today though i was caught with flu~~~
i seriously await and expecting every wednesday now!!!! (:

SIDENOTE: Bro called me few days back!!^O^ he's on time-leave!he will be out soon!and i would have someone to share my happiness and sorrows together!^O^ 29th APRIL!!!! (: next week he will be out for a short while again also!

Labels: Family, Love

Attended Daniel's BBQ party near his house there with baby <3
due to financial problems =p,we just got him a water dispenser from ACTION CITY =p
sorry dan =X I kinda like this photo of baby <3

Labels: Friends, Love

Paid $88 bucks and go on a journey with Baby,aiwee and kelly.
it was like finally i'm able to go oversea with baby together,
and finally with my good friends.
but a pity bro,jin and jeremy wasn't here.

So,Let the pictures Rock N' Roll (:

FIRST DAYReached Genting after 6-7hours (:

That's about it!!(:

i had fun with my friends and lots of love with baby, but Genting wasn't as fun as i always thought since i was a kid..but i never regret going too!^O^ hope there are more chances for me and baby to travel around the world again soon!!

Sidenote: Changed to this blogskin (: i think i will settled down with this for long though it's pretty childish =p

Labels: Love