It's a new year, a new start.
but certain things i just have to blog it out,
so i would definitely feel better.
After this post,
i wouldn't be commit to friendship so much,
or maybe sarscastically,
to you all only (:

Rewinding back to 2008..

It was christmas eve,and i just came back from poly friends' chalet gathering.
i'm pretty glad that the chalet only lasted from 23th - 24th as i'm expecting..
or perhaps thinking that my CLOSE FRIENDS would actually jio me out.
just like every year,
we did.

I knew jin was out aboard,so i might not join you all.
but the thing is if you all even bother to drop me a sms,
i would join you all eventually as there are guys there to accompany me.

well..
as i came back from malaysia,
there's not even a message for me.
perhaps i expected and think too much,
or as my friend say:

"in this world, we don't wait for anything or everything, must learn to approach."

i just don't.
Because i knew our friendship is like long time never meet,
but when meet up,
we still be able to stir up lots of noises,
trigger up happiness and chat happily.


Maybe the PARTY WORLD event puts me off.
but its' ok, friends don't bear grudes as well,
but this time is the christmas that pissed me off.

The fact that it's i sms you all,
and found out for sure EXPECTED,
you guys are with your poly friends as well.
the other guy just never reply me.
~speechless~

So i told my gf how i feel,
and when jin came back,
i told him too.

But as Jin said,dun look too deep into friendship with them,
with them or without them,
it's still the same.
i know that's what he claim,
but that's because he's closer with them.
he know how to approach more than me.

What i really pissed off is this part.
perhaps we never meet up for christmas is ok,
but what shit that comes out from you all's mouth,
pissed the hell outta me.


What do you mean by telling jin that,
you never jio me for christmas,
IS AFRAID THAT I MIGHT BE SPENDING WITH MY GF??
lol...

Please..
i remember you saying that once i got a girlfriend,
i would began to neglect friends.
but i assure and reassure you,
i won't be like last time,
neglect everyone else but only with gf.

For the fact that i treated you all like CLOSE FRIENDS,
that's why i would bother to care and would want meet up with you guys.
eve i was damm free,
gf back in malaysia,
chalet ended on the morning of the eve!

So what's this phrase about me MIGHT BE SPENDING WITH MY GF??

please don't find me scary and tell jin stories,
and somewhat like pushing everything to me.
for the fact that its you SPENDING EVE WITH YOUR NEW BF,
and your classmates,
not me.

ever since you all fall for the same guy,
our friendship has become cuii and very fake.
yes maybe perhaps you have your own frens in poly as well,
but have you ever tought abt us?me?lol..

and to the other you,
you also said the same thing as her.
wat i might be spending eve with my gf.
stop pushing everything to me can?
you yourself is mesmerizing with the girl you shldn love!
just tell me where are you during eve?lol..


ok i stop here.
i wanted to SMS all these to you all that day,
but jin stopped me and tell me to relax.
but i still wanted to type evtin out here,
so i won't care a hoot about you guys..
or should say..
over-concern this CLOSE FRIENDS status.

Do what you want,
Say what you could,
Stab me and push everything to me,
I appreaciated your services alot (:

Just to add a last phrase,
i'm different from the secondary school guy you've known.
ever since my past love failure,
i've learn to change.
so stop keep thinking that i'm always with my gf.
yes i love my gf,
but i somehow cherish the frenship we 4 built up..
not anymore.

On the 26th Dec..

Something happen and my baby was so hurt =(
sorry..
although i was still sick,
i rush down to malaysia and spend the night with her.

Really sorry..

My baby is my everything,
i have to be honest with her everything even when we are straits apart.
when certain things i do might upset her,
i won't do it again or care about other people's issues.

you just take care and everything will go smoothly (:
and baby,
i love only you, please believe me oh!! ((^n_n^)) <3

The last day of 2008

Very sick that day but went countdown with poly friends.
maybe my dirty mouth pissed someone off,
but ps,
this is my way to communicate =p
but if you do find me overboard,
tell me and i would restrain myself (:

then at BOTTLE TREE PARK,
i said something wrong and made baby angry.
but after that we ok le and we say out everything, <3 color="#6600cc" size="5">TA-DA!!!!!!!!! ^O^

WELCOME TO 2009!!!!!!!
It's definitely a new year, a new start.

P/s: "Its ok teck leong. As long as u need my advice. Dun lose interest."
^O^ i'm very glad you hadn't give up on me (:

Thanks MAE for helping me change to this wonderful blogskin again!!!^O^
(see, your name sooooooooo bigg!!=p )

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