i just did a horrible thing when i got home.

...i chided my mum.
omg..
what have i done..again..

i always wanted to give them good life,
promise to be a good child n be filial to them..
end up i scolded her for being nosey about my hair??.... =(

asshole.
i dun think i deserve to be their perfect child.
i did not scold as in...those heaty arguments... -.-''

i vent my anger by saying her in a sarcastic manner.
till i hit the point that my dad has to come in n reprimand me..
he REMINDED me that i must show respect,
yet i did not heed his command and went on blabblering................

i'm so...an asshole.
even after that,my mum came to me and find topics to start chatting with me -.-''
what the hell have i done..

everytime i reminded myself to be a good child,
yet i had been making them angry...worry..upset..disappointed...

i'm sorry mum...
i'm so so sorry..
i wish i had the courage to see in front of you,
but obviously i don't.

wanted to confide this with someone,
but i guess the only best listener this late is mr blogger.com
i'm so useless...

as i'm typing now..
my heart aches as i was reminded of every single words i chided you,mum..

i'm sure..
your heart hurts 10 000ousand times than me..
just now...

sorry =(
i swear i will love you guys more!
and really be nice.........sry dad..and mum.