End of adam khoo today (:

ok~
i wont list don watev we does tis 3 days-.-''
but wat what i couldn forget ever was ..
today.

We started off by doing mindmaps laa wit GERALD..
then wit FREDDY..
When AMIN came,everyone was so HIGH n :)
and played the games was like damm fun n funny ^^

So he end up wit the song,
IF WE HOLD ON TOGETHER
and juz like last yr,
he made us to place our arms to the frens alongside us :)

i swear,
i swear the moment he told me do tat,n played the song,
the 1st person i tot of was JIN JIN.
subsequently,KELLY then AIWEE..
y?

i wished they were beside me,
n i will place my arm happily across thier shoulders..
we will be HOLDING ON TOGETHER
and singing tis song...
Simply becuz,i dunno y but cherish them alot..
These 3 are the ones whu were by my side
when i was down...
very down...

Esp JIN. ^^

Then again,i look around,ok,i laid my arm across ZIKAI n JIAWIN :)
so we were singing in MANLY barbarian style HAHAHA!

We chipped in 50cents each to purchase cake for MR AMIN ^^
n took several photos too.

now to the hall...
as i know tat ppl will be crying to the mics
n reciting their love for their parents,
(cuz i attended tis ADAM KHOO twice -.- )

then,
i prepared.
watev i wanted to say,i WANTED TO go up.
i really wanted to.
i had so much in my mind.
i wanted to go up NOT becuz i wan act cool,go up show ppl tat i brave.
i juz wanted to say alot of tins..
alot.

but tis tin called the GUTS,
was dragging me back.................
until it came to a point tat WEILIANG's speech makes me teared..
n i jio MINGYUAN go up tgt :)

we went,we were the last two as many came up aftwards.
soo...
my heart was pounding..
very very fast..
MINGYUAN n i even wanted to juz walked down the Q
n head back to seat.....
but i told him tat i muz say evtin out today... :)
so we stayed on...

the WAIT was intolerable..
in my mind i was rehearsing wat i gonna say
again n again n again ..
i was afraid tat i lost control n juz teared away.. -.-''
n my heart..
was thumping n thumping...
bth.

but aft ALICIA's speech,
the whole programme was ended wit me mingyuan n a guy,
then 2 gals haven speak! :(
so we head down to our seat wit dissapointment,
n we sang the song again,
ARMIng against each other again :)

but...
i juz couldn slp.
if i never say or type out each n every words i wanted to say
i will never be able to fall aslp tonight.

Pls bear wit me,
its gonna be lame,bored n long -.-''

''hi,i tin tat alot of u dunno whu am i here.
Simply becuz i joined back WGS around MARCH..
Last yr,i failed my O lvl wit 27 points..
n my maths was F9..
i stare at the result slip..i ask ms yati-WHERE CAN I GO ?
but i know tat CHOICES HAVE CONSEQUENCES..
i choose to be lazy hence i muz face the fate of retaining..

but at the same time,i faced other probs.
i broke up wit the gal..i once used to love most,
n tot tat she's gonna be the 1 whom i will spend my future wit,
My bestfren backstab me n call me names..
n i broke frenship wit him..

So i started work non-stop,
to numb myself to tin of the unhappi tins..
evday aft work walking home,i will asked my fren to buy beer.
sometimes,i bought alot n drank in my bedroom.
i juz use alcohol to escape frm probs.

but who r the ones whu care love n never giv up on me?
My Dad,mum n my sis.
They were like encouraging me,guiding me..
teling me not to drink so much n never give up hope.
They even supported me when i decided to repeat here..

SO i came back.
the 3rd day aft,i ponteng sch immediately as i wasnt used to
the new environment...new frens...
as i was crossing the bridge n MR IVAN LEE sms me..
i stopped n stare down at the cars zooming past.............
i stupidly told IVan lee tat i wanted to jump down...

n i Suddly Really gt the urge...
but my sis suddly called me n asked whether am i home yet.
tats when i realised tat
i still hav my parents..my sis..my family..

For them,i muz study hard,
i tried n still trying nw.
but i juz wanna say is tat
i love my dad,
i love my mum,
i love my sis n i love this family.

If not for my parents,i wldn hav exist..
simply becuz,i lived for them,
n i really really,
love them n cherish them alot.

tis morning,2 ppl asked me :

''TECKLEONG,u take ADAM khoo twice u still cry ah ytd ? ''

my mood was spoiled but i know they meant it for joke.
yet again,i'm not crying nw,my eyes were juz sweating :D

Lastly,MR JUSTIN!
juz nw when JUNHONG praised u right,
i was cursing u hard deep in my heart.
cuz i used to hate u.
i hate u always catches my hair,
catch me when i tuck out shirt.
Ok,but i told myself tis,
i will not hate u,
becuz i nod u r a very nice person too :)

tml i will shave my hair,but i'll still comb spike :P
i will still tuck out..err abit la ok? :P
i will proved u wrong!
i will not fail my maths again!

And Boon han,Fiona,Shufeng,
We choose to cm back retain,
we muz wake up n work hard ok?
jiayou! ^^ ''

i swear,
tats all wat i wanted to say.
not a word missed out..
n nw i regretted nto to come up to the mic earlier juz nw.. -.-''
laaaaalaaalalalalalalala~
nvm,i juz hav to realli put in EXTRA effort nw.

For my new frens,its a new unknown journey..
For me,i'm walking tis journey again,
but tis time if i failed to successfully past thru it,
i will not be able to be granted a THIRD CHANCE.

i dun empty talk,
i will prove to ev1 tat i will pass my maths n get into poly :D

And from nw onwards,
i love the way i am.
i love the face,hair,height n physical features tat i was borned wit.
n i love the way on how i dress :)

i dun care ppl say tat i look BENG >_<
i dun care tat ppl say i look short ugly old GL or act cool.

i juz love myself for being whu i am :)

i tin,
i can slp now :D
tata nites! :)