Friday, July 27, 2007
End of adam khoo today (:ok~
i wont list don watev we does tis 3 days-.-''
but wat what i couldn forget ever was ..
today.
We started off by doing mindmaps laa wit
GERALD..then wit
FREDDY..When
AMIN came,
everyone was so HIGH n :)and played the games was like damm fun n funny ^^
So he end up wit the song,
IF WE HOLD ON TOGETHERand juz like last yr,
he made us to place our arms to the frens alongside us :)i swear,i swear the moment he told me do tat,n played the song,
the 1st person i tot of was JIN JIN.subsequently,
KELLY then AIWEE..y?i wished they were beside me,
n i will place my arm happily across thier shoulders..
we will be
HOLDING ON TOGETHERand singing tis song...
Simply becuz,i dunno y but cherish them alot..
These 3 are the ones whu were by my side
when i was down...
very down...Esp JIN. ^^Then again,i look around,ok,i laid my arm across
ZIKAI n
JIAWIN :)
so we were singing in
MANLY barbarian style HAHAHA!
We chipped in 50cents each to purchase cake for
MR AMIN ^^n took several photos too.
now to the hall...
as i know tat ppl will be crying to the mics
n reciting their love for their parents,
(cuz i attended tis ADAM KHOO twice -.- )then,
i prepared.
watev i wanted to say,i WANTED TO go up.i really wanted to.
i
had so much in my mind.i wanted to go up
NOT becuz i wan act cool,go up show ppl tat i brave.
i juz wanted to say alot of tins..
alot.
but tis tin called the
GUTS,was dragging me back.................
until it came to a point tat
WEILIANG's speech makes me teared..
n i jio
MINGYUAN go up tgt :)
we went,we were the last two as many came up aftwards.
soo...
my heart was pounding..very very fast..MINGYUAN n i even wanted to juz walked down the Q
n head back to seat.....
but i told him tat i muz say evtin out today... :)
so we stayed on...the
WAIT was intolerable..
in my mind i was rehearsing wat i gonna say
again n again n again ..i was afraid tat i lost control n juz teared away.. -.-''
n my heart..
was thumping n thumping...bth.
but aft
ALICIA's speech,
the whole programme was ended wit me mingyuan n a guy,
then 2 gals haven speak! :(
so we head down to our seat wit dissapointment,
n we sang the song again,
ARMIng against each other again :)
but...
i juz couldn slp.if i never say or type out each n every words i wanted to say
i will never be able to fall aslp tonight.
Pls bear wit me,its gonna be lame,bored n long -.-''''hi,i tin tat alot of u dunno whu am i here.Simply becuz i joined back WGS around MARCH..Last yr,i failed my O lvl wit 27 points..n my maths was F9..i stare at the result slip..i ask ms yati-WHERE CAN I GO ?but i know tat CHOICES HAVE CONSEQUENCES..i choose to be lazy hence i muz face the fate of retaining..but at the same time,i faced other probs.i broke up wit the gal..i once used to love most,n tot tat she's gonna be the 1 whom i will spend my future wit,My bestfren backstab me n call me names..n i broke frenship wit him..So i started work non-stop,to numb myself to tin of the unhappi tins..evday aft work walking home,i will asked my fren to buy beer.sometimes,i bought alot n drank in my bedroom.i juz use alcohol to escape frm probs.but who r the ones whu care love n never giv up on me?My Dad,mum n my sis.They were like encouraging me,guiding me..teling me not to drink so much n never give up hope.They even supported me when i decided to repeat here..SO i came back.the 3rd day aft,i ponteng sch immediately as i wasnt used to the new environment...new frens...as i was crossing the bridge n MR IVAN LEE sms me..i stopped n stare down at the cars zooming past.............i stupidly told IVan lee tat i wanted to jump down...n i Suddly Really gt the urge...but my sis suddly called me n asked whether am i home yet.tats when i realised tat i still hav my parents..my sis..my family..For them,i muz study hard,i tried n still trying nw.but i juz wanna say is tati love my dad,i love my mum,i love my sis n i love this family.If not for my parents,i wldn hav exist..simply becuz,i lived for them,n i really really,love them n cherish them alot.tis morning,2 ppl asked me :''TECKLEONG,u take ADAM khoo twice u still cry ah ytd ? ''my mood was spoiled but i know they meant it for joke.
yet again,i'm not crying nw,my eyes were juz sweating :DLastly,MR JUSTIN!juz nw when JUNHONG praised u right,i was cursing u hard deep in my heart.cuz i used to hate u.i hate u always catches my hair,catch me when i tuck out shirt.Ok,but i told myself tis,i will not hate u,becuz i nod u r a very nice person too :)tml i will shave my hair,but i'll still comb spike :Pi will still tuck out..err abit la ok? :Pi will proved u wrong!i will not fail my maths again! And Boon han,Fiona,Shufeng,We choose to cm back retain,we muz wake up n work hard ok?jiayou! ^^ ''i swear,tats all wat i wanted to say.
not a word missed out..
n nw i regretted nto to come up to the mic earlier juz nw.. -.-''
laaaaalaaalalalalalalala~nvm,i juz hav to realli put in EXTRA effort nw.
For my new frens,its a new unknown journey..
For me,i'm walking tis journey again,
but tis time if i failed to successfully past thru it,
i will not be able to be granted a
THIRD CHANCE.i dun empty talk,
i will prove to ev1 tat i will pass my maths n get into poly :D
And from nw onwards,
i love the way i am.i love the face,hair,height n physical features tat i was borned wit.n i love the way on how i dress :)i dun care ppl say tat i look BENG >_<i dun care tat ppl say i look short ugly old GL or act cool.i juz love myself for being whu i am :)i tin,
i can slp now :Dtata nites! :)
7/27/2007 12:14:00 AM