Friday, December 08, 2006
But..i realli dunno wat to do..complaining to my parents..tat i will go crazy..if i continues to stay at home..my dad..my mum..my er jie..they..suffer under me..i'm juz like a beggar..rotting at home,waiting for 11dec2006 to come,so tat i can start working to numb myself again..but..but.. i shouted at my dad,made my mum blood boils,n quarrel wit my er jie..wtf...y has TAN TECK LEONG transform into tis ''creature''?i dun uds y...i couldn find myself..i'm juz like a person,lost in a strange domain,where i cant even c the image of myself :( Until ytd,i wanted to change :D i wanted to find meaning in evtin i do again!i wanted to be the old me,when i used to be veri happi :D even when i hav no frens nor love!!!!!...perhaps ppl tin i'm braggin n blog like a nuts...but..ev single words here,came directly frm the bottom of my borken heart (hmm...a song name ? :P )hahahass..then...ytd,i decided to exercise in the morning..omg...i realli aged alotx ler.. :x i run..staring blankly at the tracks..and i do workouts...while i was doing sit ups,my third set of twentys,it takes me one song, one single song to realli discover tat,i hav wasted these few days of mine......and how wicked i had treated my parents...and my er jie.... that song is QUAN YU... as i lied down on the sit up platform,i watched the tree,shedding its leaves,one by one,frm its stem,to the ground.. :D its not a image which one wld c evday...i mean in such a beautiful way larr..then,i stopped evtin i do,n really reflects on the tins i do.....WAT THE HELL... :P i nearly vomit blood k!i cant imagine i had becm such a sucker.....juz becuz of love failure,i hurt the ones i love n treasure the most,whom are my true FAMILY???
12/08/2006 11:09:00 AM
